Another post from the all new dropKAG.com! Man this is going to be a weird one… UPS… DOWNS… it’s been crazy! So it all started yesterday morning. Did the routine. Bathroom, Doggy, Coffee. Sat down and was waiting on some stuff, and UB was on gaming! So I decided to warm up the hands. I sign on, PSN update, then… …

Alright! This is a rough but good one! Third official post from dropKAG.com… we’re actually doin this people. I’m proud I made it to 24. I’m not much for writing. I am an over sharing person, so assuming that’s fueling this hot mess lmao! Well let’s get on with it. First a quick Monday update, I think I missed some …

The second post from the new blog on dropKAG.com! Yesterday wasn’t very productive. I felt ok in the morning. I got up did the normal routine, let the dog out, made coffee, sat down wrote a little and then read a little. My hands were hurting fairly well so I decided to do some gaming before I finished my “work”. …

Here were are! The first official blog post from the all new dropKAG.com. As the website states… “Hello! Thank you for being here! My name is Ken Goff, I’m also known as dropKAG. This website is dedicated to helping me survive, hopefully thrive and document my journey though life after being diagnosed with aggressive early onset Parkinson’s Disease at 40 …

Edit: So while recreating these post on my website blog because I’m moving everything out there and will double post here. I found out somewhere around update 14 I duplicated a number again 🤦‍♂️🤷‍♂️😂 so we’re actually on day 21. Website info coming when I’m done. Friday… which really means nothing to me anymore. I remember when Friday meant I …

Well I just noticed day 17 happened twice 😆… damn you Parkinson’s. Yep now I get to blame everything on Parkinson’s, one of the few benefits… and that’s fixed. We now have a day 18. Ok, here we go with another day. Did my stretches in bed, got up, felt ok. The stress seems to be less today and I …

Alright, we’ve made it another day. Today the outlook on life is still concern but more worry then fear. I’m feeling a bit better but now instead of fearing the unknown I’m trying to understand how to beat it. Now that is the true challenge. My goal over the next few days is to take the worry that was fear …

Well I guess I’ll start on my frustration with Facebook. I have no idea how my posts keep defaulting to “specific friends” and why no matter how many times I change the settings I have to change each individual post. Parkinson’s is killing my IQ I thinks… anyway on to the update. I ensured this and all the previous posts …

Well it’s Monday morning. I made it through the weekend. It wasn’t fun. There were some ok times but it’s been a living hell since Thursday basically. Since the denial from disability I haven’t been able to control my emotions or body as well. The smallest situations seems to throw me way out of control. Yes, I get very depressed …

Not so good entry. This is going to be a bad one… what seemed like a good day quickly went bad. OT rescheduled which was ok because by that time I felt absolutely horrible. My body started to crash before I even got the started day but I pushed though. I got 3 small tasks done and then the pain …

Well… another sleepless night. I ended up getting about an hour of sleep. It’s either I can’t sleep / insomnia or I’m so extremely tired I’m passing out during the day. I missed dinner the last few days because I’ve either been too tired to eat or just feeling sick about everything. I’m the worry type, unless things are good …

Past two days flew by… with the new name I can skip a day here and there, not feel bad 🥴 So I’m gonna make this quick cause insomnia 5:30am, haven’t slept… yeah. So good and bad. Some of the good. I’ve got a couple social workers trying to find me help. I’ve been to see my GP. She says …

The crap I write. Well I now know what I’ll call it, Day turns to Entry so it will now go like this Entry 14… The Good Fight #parkinsonsdisease (edit: which eventually changed) The day came and went. Some video games in the morning with a friend who always cheers me up. Then cleaning the house… by the time I …

The crap I write. Still don’t know what to call this. (Fighting Parkinson’s?) Woke up bad, little, no internet. Two hours later it’s kinda mostly back. By that time I’m already having kind of a not good day. Talked to a few folks. Built a couple Glyos figures for the little shelf. Then was feeling horrible and tired. Went to …

The crap I write. Still don’t know what to call this. (I think that’s the new name) It’s early, only 9:30pm… well late for some. Not late for me but I’m beat. Insert some crass quote from my father 🧡 He never really gave a fuck what others thought, I always enjoyed his humor. That’s probably why I’m so twisted. …

The crap I write. Still don’t know what to call this. This is not going to be a positive post so if you want good feels, please move on and don’t read this one. I’ll keep it short. I got to play some video games this morning. Wasn’t feeling the normal joy. I assume it’s because yesterday was rough, I …

The new diary of sorts. or Day 11 but posting for day 10. I was in pure fill out paperwork and sell mode ALL day. I filled out between 20 and 30% off the paperwork from the lawyers. Then I went through my storage selling what I could to make what money I can. I’m still severely afraid even with …

Still fighting to find a name for this and debating moving it to my website too. BUT for now it will just stay here on my Facebook. It’s more of an update for friends at this point. I didn’t like calling it “Denied by Disability” because that seemed negative. So I’m looking for a new name. First I’ll start with …

I’ve decided to keep writing a little about my day each day. I’m changing it to “Day (insert number here)… Fighting Parkinson’s”. It will be a very short journal of sorts. A snippet into my life and help me by thinking somebody actually reads this shit 🤣🙄 I’ll try to keep it positive but realize life can be lemons so …

Day 7 which hasn’t ended yet but it’s day 8.. getting denied by disability. 3am… Haven’t slept. Insomnia. Anxiety, worry, stress. Designing a art piece for a friend which is helping because it’s honoring loss and I can relate. I’ll show it later… right now I suppose I’m gonna take another sleepy time pill and try to get some rest. …

Late Daily Update Took the day off. Worked on some new designs. Played some video games. Nerves are shot so needed a break before Monday begins. In a decent mindset and things are going ok today. I still wish better but hopefully moving forward things will keep improving. I’m anxious still about everything… income, projects I’m working on, making sure …

Double post Day 5 and 6! Basically a day sort of lost. Lots of ups and down, did a lot of talking to try and settle my nerves but I’m as tense as it gets. Still having a hard time eating. They day went by quick, nerves are kinda shot, didn’t even feel like making an update so here was …

I think everything is finally setting in… I woke up at 3am in a panic, went back to sleep or tried (hard to tell), back up at 4am in a panic, chest tight, mind racing, confusion then set in and I sat on the floor in front of the heater for awhile finally trying to read about a Soviet cosmonaut. …

Life feels better. With the donations and kind words along with the help from my doctor I’ve pulled myself back out of the darkness. I want to keep moving forward… Keep in mind I’m unable to drive or leave the property alone because of my disease. I would love for anyone who wants to support, give information, suggest ideas or …

I’m better today. Thank you for all the love and support. I’ve been in contact with my doctors and I’m currently looking for a lawyer. I’ve found a very nice person to hopefully help me navigate these very confusing waters. Remember just because I can create wonderful things doesn’t give my brain and body the ability to always work or …

I made a post yesterday that stated… (on FB where this Blog started) “Almost 2 years of fighting, unable to work, hardly able to function, have an aggressive form of Parkinson’s and I’m on tons of meds… disability denied. I want to just die right now. I’m totally fucked…” Let me explain while I’m still cognitively able do so this …