Wow! I know these blog posts are coming slow these days still… I do apologize. Coming off a medication or withdrawal I’ve found can be worse than starting it. Life has been a crazy roller coaster of everything. I think today we’re just going to wing and and see what we can get out of these hands. Let’s jump right into it.
None of my problems have changed. By now anybody that’s following knows, heater, leaks, dog food, doctors, lawyers, survival and everything else in life. So I think we’ll skip over that today. The good news is no new problems since the last blog.
Medication… oh the bane of my current existence. So as I think I stated we’re dropping all non essential medications. Starting fresh, seeing how I actually feel not on all this chemical modification. Not all at once but slowly. Honestly I don’t know what’s worse being on shitty meds or coming off of them. I’ll get moment where I feel fine and all is good but normally it feels like uggggggggggggggggggggggggg. Sluggish you could say. My hands are still partially numb. Fingers rigid and hand in constant pain. My right side is also in constant pain. Tremors come and go as they please. I feel stiff and sore like I’ve been beaten worse than normal. All those overwhelming feelings are flooding back in. That’s actually the good part. I’m feeling things properly again or feeling back to my old self. Sometimes for good, sometimes for worse but at least I’m feeling. I’m able to smile, laugh and feeling better mentally. Still having fairly bad headaches and I’m no faster or slower than before but I’ll take the little wins. I think that confusingly sums up my current state well enough.
I’m down to hard survival mode. Just trying to get through every day. Each day I feel microns better than the day past so again I’ll take any improvement no matter how small. I do feel like I’m going insane being stuck in the RV and unable to do much. I can’t paint or do much with my hands. I don’t want to 3D print because I’m running low on resin and I need to conserve for money making projects. I have many months of survival until my next disability determination so I have to be very cautious with the little funds I have left. So I’m left with watching tv, walking around, daily chores as I can and spending time with Dart which is actually awesome. I don’t really get to leave and not being able to do hobby craft stuff has sucked really bad. I’m pushing through though. The current goal is to go back to daily blogs. Let’s see if I can push one out tomorrow. They will get shorter but give you a more in depth look at my daily life instead of me just whining all the time.
So with that… more thoughts and fun tomorrow. It’s time to get today started. Gotta think positive and keep pushing forward. Never lose hope no matter how hard the struggle. Thank you so very much for sticking with me, you all are very much appreciated! Much love to everyone!