Happy Holidays! Just a few days until Christmas! I hope you all get everything you want and more! Well… let’s get on with it!
The support and donations are again wonderful and overwhelming. It’s warmed my heart and made the past few days more happy than not. I apologize that I’ve been absent a bit. My little guy (dog) Dart hasn’t been feeling well. I’m a bit worried but hopefully it’s nothing serious. I called my old vet that’s 45 min away in Sisters and they offered to see him if he’s not better by Xmas Eve morning. I’m trying to ensure I have everything setup in case things get worse instead of better. Let’s just hope better. It’s been challenging because no matter how tentative I am, he keeps loosing control and going #2 in the house. I’ve found ways to kind of contain and clean the mess faster than the first time it happened. At night he can’t tell me because he doesn’t bark or scratch at me for some reason when I’m sleeping. Even though I wake up many time a night I still can’t catch it to let him out. I feel terrible for him. I know he feels bad so I just do my best to comfort him. Every time he goes I have to clean him up which isn’t easy and not pleasant but neither matter. He’s the thing I love most in this world, even more than myself. He always comes first in my world. So let’s hope for the best, I’m prepared best I can be I think. He’s also been having back and breathing problems. Minor but it’s the start of what’s to come. He’s getting old and sooner or later… but until then I’ll love him as much as I can.
Yesterday was pure hell but I got through it. Woke up to a huge mess from the above, then after cleaning him, the RV, my bedding and myself I started my day. Yep I was already feeling it. Next came errands. Meds, Propane, Groceries, and more… Again by the time I got home and stuff put away felt like I was ready to crash and burn, but I kept going. Next came putting gaskets on the new printers and testing them. It was going great with the first new setup, we’ll call it #2. Even the test prints from it were fantastic. I got to #3, got it all setup and after turning it in noticed the LCD was broken. Son of a b…. That’s not optimal. So that’s ones gotta go back. It would take far longer to get the part under warranty vs just packing it up and getting a replacement. So I ran some prints on #1 and #2. Everything came out good out of #2 so we have winner there I think. One part was about 3% small but looked great! So that will be a reprint today. Other then that I had to clean up one more small mess Dart made. I had to clean him up every time he went because of his fur. It’s been challenging and I honestly don’t know how I’m pushing so hard. I’m guessing my body is going to crash in the next few days.
Which brings us to today! Woke up to a mess and him a mess but my containment procedures worked for the most part. Clean up was easy enough. Then I took him inside, got him cleaned up. Easier in the house with running water vs the RV with no running water. THEN genius struck. We had haircut time! I trimmed all the fur around the “area” so it will minimize mess. Well he wasn’t real happy about how long it took. Dad moves (yes I’m his dad) kinda slow so it was a difficult process. I got it done, he seems to know what I did and I think is happier. He’s sleeping behind me now. We haven’t been far apart 24/7 for the last 11 years. My work allowed me to have him so he’s been my partner in crime for many great years. He’s the main thing that gets me through the day. Having little security and not being able to care for him like I use to worries me. His health is deteriorating I can tell, but he’s a soldier and keeps pushing. Like me, he has good days and bad.
Next today comes the medication specialist at noon. No idea what that’s going to bring but I’m excited. I’m sure I’ll let you guys know if it’s note worthy. Until then, I’m going to have some tea and relax a bit because it’s been a long rough morning already.
Called and updated the lawyers about the denial of benefits letter yesterday. We spoke about the process, what I need to do, other important stuff, etc. So here we go into round three. The estimated time at this level is about 18 months. So I’ve another year and a half of hell to get through. How? I have no idea. I can’t believe that people will still be supporting me after that long. You can only ask so much of folks. I know I can make a little money here and there but not enough to survive. So what do I do? I haven’t lost hope but the anxiety, insecurity and depression are at an all time high. That being said I’m still having a wonderful holiday season. I so very much appreciate the sudden wave of support and donations. It’s given me security for at least 3 months give or take. I pray something changes sooner than not.
Well… I don’t think I’m going to get into anything off the wall in todays blog. Just a basic update. Sorry for the random post schedule lately. It’s been rough since around Thanksgiving so I’m doing the best to get through it. Let’s hope todays doctor visit makes a huge difference. With that I thank you for joining me today. It’s been a long journey for such a short run blog and doesn’t look like it’s going to stop anytime soon.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS my friends! I wish you all the best. You are all very much appreciated! Until the next installment… MUCH LOVE!