Another late night blog… a late late night blog. It’s been about 3 days I think. My worlds been slowly getting worse. Somehow my meds got messed up and I ran short. Was unable to secure a refill so from day before last until at least Monday I’m on a reduced dosage and might run out. How can this happen you ask? Yeah I’m wondering the same thing. This may be coming from the rollercoaster of shit that I’m going through but this world is just so complicated to navigate and it’s extremely depressing. I can’t tell if I’m further loosing my mind or this new world of mine is just difficult and confusing. Probably a little of both. Just know there will be no since to this blog most likely and it may seem a bit irrational but that’s what happens when you can’t get needed medications.
Really tired right now so this might not last long but hey I’m giving it my best effort. Speaking of, that’s what the last few days have been. Best efforts. I’ve been trying my hardest but just not feeling well or right. Sleeping a lot. When I am awake I’ve been trying to get house work done. Seems like that’s never ending. Luckily I got some help with laundry the last couple weeks. I’m still behind on life tasks but again I’m doing my best.
I’ve been trying to paint, base coating is about where I’m getting to before feeling like I want to crash out. I’ve got three commissions left that I really need to get done and sent. Plus Xmas gifts. I’m so far behind it’s really daunting but I’m powering through best I can. Which isn’t well, I’d like to be doing more right now…
Chasing a problem with the new printer. Can’t tell if it’s setting or a printer issue. We might be going for a 3rd try on the printer if I verify it’s not the settings/setup. At this point it’s exhausting so I’m checking with some friends that have more knowledge in this area. Guess we will see… go from there.
I honestly don’t know where to take it from here. I’ll see if I can pull myself together in the morning to push out a more fulfilling blog. Bare with me during this difficult time. I’m giving it my all. I’m a down but not out, still have hope. Be safe, be kind and much love for now my friends.