Late night blog’n… well it’s 10pm and that’s typically past my bed time. I’m usually out cold by now. I promised a blog today, I had a little energy left so here I am. For better or for worse 😆
Well got the 3D printer set back up today. Got a test print out but the gasket and protective film wrinkled so I’ll have to replace that and try again tomorrow. The prints came out great at least!
(Speaking historically) Had a bad week, had a really bad morning. Panic attacks most the night. Didn’t sleep well. Hadn’t been sleeping well. Which all led up to the upset blog. I’m not going to pretend everything is ok because it’s very much not. I am scared and do live in fear. I’m also not going to let a bad day keep me down. In fact by mid day I had turned it around and was feeling much better. So the positive take away is that I’m learning to manage those emotions and maintain a bit better during the bad times. It’s hard to find balance when you’re in a situation like mine. The insecurity is maddening. Feeling irrelevant to people and the world is difficult to deal with. More on that tomorrow.
Besides a little painting and finishing a movie that was about the extent of my day. It was a good day. What I didn’t tell you is that yesterday I got some exciting news. It was mentally healing in many ways. It was a very positive experience but I don’t want to ruin the surprise until it’s here. On that cliff hanger I have to call it. I’m hurting, tired and feel like I’m fading quick.
Remember, you’re all special in your own way. Sometimes it’s better to keep that special to yourself… kidding! Spread your wings and fly, we only get one life. Don’t spend it doing something you hate. I appreciate all of you so very greatly. Be safe and much love my friends!